My Challenge

I've met a man who is aware of my insatiable sexual desires. As a student of psychology he has spent time learning about who I am, and what makes me tick. Apparently he likes what he's learned because he's been very bold about telling me that he doesn't want to share me. In addition to that, he wants me to spend time with him without having sex. For example, he told me last night that he wouldn't come spend the night with me because he knew that I couldn't go the night without attacking him.

Because I was told "no" (which by the way, I am NOT accustomed to and really dislike) my first instinct was to rebel. There was a man hanging out with my friends and I who I've slept with before propositioning me to come home with him. Initially, I said yes. I wasn't going to let someone tell me no! After processing the situation further, I realized that this man propositioning me only wanted a piece of ass, like so many other men in my life. I also realized that were I to act on my initial instinct, I would run the risk of loosing someone who could be genuine who could help me grow beyond my cravings.

So, I told the propositioner no. I wouldn't go home with him. I guess it was in the cards for me to be really tempted because immediately following my "no" I was told that the propositioner and my brother were going to join my other 2 friends and I at the after party and spend the night. OH DRUNKEN HORNINESS...WHY MUST YOU TEMPT ME SO????

Rather then dealing with further temptation, I convinced my other two friends to leave, immediately. We did and I had a most pleasant evening with two very close friends who put no sexual pressures on me.

Now, I woke up this morning feeling fabulous about myself, my decision and my night, rather then waking up full of regrets and hurt feelings etc. I like this feeling. I want more of it!

I want to say that regardless of what happens between this new man, I thank him for opening my eyes and actually WANTING to see me become a better person, and for taking the time to get to know me...which, by the way...is exactly what I've been looking for for a really long time!