Closure

Original writing 5/17/2010

Last week I got a most shocking email from the man I walked away from last May. I haven't had any communication with him since leaving him, yet lately he'd been on my mind quite a bit. When I got the email from him, immediately my tummy and head started hurting, there were still so many emotions associated with him. I've had so much anger and hatred toward him and how things ended that I'd been blocked emotionally and mentally from moving forward in my life.

I bantered with him back and forth via email for a little while, but couldn't really go into where I was at in my life or what emotions I was feeling due to the fact that I was at work. Later in the afternoon I sent him an email explaining the hurt, the love, the anger and where I'm at now. I explained that I felt I had brought him to me because of my need for closure and our strong connection to each other which seems to still be in place.

I left work immediately after sending the email and proceeded to enjoy the company of my friends. By the end of the night, I felt like a huge weight had been lifted off my chest which had been suffocating me for the last year.

The next day when I got to work, I had an email from him which responded to each of my points and made points of his own. We discussed that a little further that day, then said our goodbyes. I now feel so light, happy, carefree.

I'm not angry anymore and there is no more hatred eating me up inside. I'm grateful that this man whom I loved so deeply was able to open the door for us to both get the closure we so desperately needed. Now, I can move on with my life, and enjoy all the beauty this world has to offer!

Thanks GDT!